“Comparing your suffering to my suffering is not where Hope is. Hope is in the name of God, Hope is when you compare your suffering to the infinite, immeasurable love of God.” Nick Vujicic
My relationship with God was bittersweet while I was pregnant with my last child, I was bitter at Him that my son had died in the womb and then grateful for having been blessed with another baby. I was confused. As the months went by my anger subsided and I decided to pursue peace with God, where else is there to go? I reasoned.
Peace was afar and elusive. Like a beautiful butterfly settling to rest on an outstretched hand; it stays for but a moment then takes flight again. Peace would settle over me just like that butterfly, just for a moment, and then elude me at the slightest upset. Then I would be left questioning, “Where is God in this then?”
Upon reflection of my past experience with fleeting peace, I have come to realise that if I want to have peace that surpasses understanding, I must not seek to understand; I must be content to live with questions and trust that there will be a day when it will all make sense.Until then may I encourage you to relentlessly pursue peace with what ‘is’… life with all of the ups and downs. x